I remember this quote today. In the new year, I have put all my thoughts, energy, time & efforts to write yearly goals with at least 8 to 10 to-do-things. At that time, I have imagined all the monumental achievements that would have brought “a greater me, a better version of me”. I even prioritize my goals & chop down each one into small & easy-to-do tasks so I can achieve each goal one by one. It looks like a perfect plan and sounds very promising.
Suddenly, I look back to see that around 3–4 months have passed by but it seems I have not moved a little bit. I have just accomplished 1–2 smaller tasks in a goal and it seems I cannot go on to do other tasks. I do not whether my laziness or any blocker on my way prevents me from fulfilling my yearly goals.
After a few weeks, I see that I have to battle between Laziness vs Discipline. Laziness is the easiest thing I have ever encountered while Discipline is the hardest thing I have ever fought in my life. My question is “How can I maintain my energy to fulfill all my resolutions throughout the year?” But after the next few weeks, I have just realized the key thing is: I forgot what I feel at the time I write my goals, these feelings are my motivation to write all these goals, and believe I can do it. I remember all the mixed feelings of winning, excitement, love, and warmth when I achieve all my goals.
I have wandered aimlessly through endless thoughts that why I am not capable to do it, why I am waiting for tomorrow to do it, why I am not good and care enough to accomplish anything. These thoughts keep echoing in my mind that I forgot how wonderful and beautiful it is when I write my goals, how I am so energetic and eager to work hard to achieve these. The picture of cannot-do is extremely hazy in my mind so unconsciously I feel lazy of doing anything.
Now I clearly see this truth, every time I feel down and do not want to do anything, I just set back and close my eyes. I recall the day that I write my yearly goals. I revisit the feelings on that day to feel again those loveable emotions. Then, it seems like all my energy is back and I continue to do & accomplish each small task everyday. I just keep going with my plan one-by-one & day-by-day, and magically I do it without forcing myself too hard and see myself more discipline to accomplish any task on time.
I am worth something in life. All the things I do are what I love to do. I am blessed and happy to do the things I love.
Ensuring that I will spend a few days every 03 months to review my progress. I will look back at all things I have done. I will consider if I could adjust, adapt or change anything to better accomplish my goals. Most important, it is the way to feel all the little things I have done, to see that I am progressing every day.
When I am lazy and do not want to do anything. I will set a lazy day to relax, being a procrastinator for a day. Then, be right back to my track immediately. I can start off with casual and relaxed tasks then speed up with more time-consuming tasks. That way, I always feel enoyable not overwhlemed or put pressure to accomplish the task.
Just be alone in a quiet place and recall all the feelings that I have felt or I would feel if I achieve all your goals at year-end. The feelings of dedication when writing my goals. The feelings of progressing every day. The feelings of happiness of doing all things I love. The feelings of warmth and enjoyment when I enjoy every day doing one by one task and accomplish a goal after months.
Recall the time when I havedecided to start doing these, and just go with the flow of my thoughts, I will feel again all the emotions that day when I have made my decision to do those goals. Finally I will see though my “inner-me” to know what I am true feelings and understand why what I am doing right now.
THE END — 04 May 2022 — my 2nd story
